what if I fail...

in my mission in life? what if i fail at the jobs i'm supposed to be doing? what if i fail to act? what if i fail to decide? what if i fail to sacrafice that which must be sacraficed? what if i...

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what if spend my life asking stupid "what if" questions? what if THAT is what MAKES me "fail"? If we are really going to reduce life to a series of pass/fail grades about this or that meaningless little challenge, why not ask a better question?

what do we DO WHEN we succeed?

ahh, much better! you're asking the same thing, but in a different question. and no, don't give this "positive thinking" crap, this isn't "positive thinking", this is "success thinking". this is "honesty thinking" this is "independance thinking".

You need to go the other way, too. fuck "positive". you need to ask yourself other questions, too, like:

what HAPPENS if we don't succeed?

power. choice. you're in control if you succeed. that's how you succeed. you demonstrate your ability to be in control of your own life. nothing is worse than not being in control of your own life. if you don't succeed, that's because you're not in control. when you're not in control, you are not responsible. you escape from your reality with food or alchohol, or other forms of escapism. watchin tv or movies. reading books. reading blogs. you just spend your time asking "why me", "what's wrong with me", "why can't i...". maybe your a conservative type and spend your time blaming the government and taxes. maybe your just lazy and blame it on the ones that aren't.

fuck you! you can't because you WON'T. you can't because you CHOOSE NOT TO. after all, if you tried and failed, maybe it's some part of you that you have no control over! "something's wrong with me". maybe it's the world "Things are unfair". maybe it's becaue x happend when you were a child "I can't because when..."

uh, maybe its, uhh...you? "I know it's me, but i don't know how to change." Well, here's the secret. you ready?

change your definition of who you are. 

who are you? To answer that question, you have to ask yourself "who do you want to be"? Then, just be that person. don't think this has anything to do with being "honest" with yourself. if you were "honest" with yourself, you would allready BE the person you WANT to be, but something's holding you back. guess what, dipshit? that thing that's holding you back is your DIS-honesty about who you WANT TO BE.

the question is "who do you want to BE"? However, what we stupid little human beings define as "be-ing" usually consist of what we own, what our occupation is, what our level of education is, how much we weight. what we look like, who we're married to, who our kids our, who are parents are, what tv shows we watch, what books we read, what clothes we wear, etc... BULLSHIT!

who we ARE depends on what we DO. not our "occupation", but our behavior. our behaivior depends on us. that is the only thing we can change right now.

how do we change our behavior, though?

we do it by changing our perception of that behavior. how do we change our perception? we have to force ourselves to look at things in a different way? how do we do that? we analize it from different perspectives. how do we analize?

we ask questions

let's start asking some questions.