I'm turning 30 today...

...but i don't feel any different. i don't know. in my mind, i guess i thought that 30 was one of those numbers that meant a turning point. there were people under 30, in one group, and people over 30 in another. well, i guess i should have thrown that out the window when i found people that were 26,27 in the "other" catatory and people who were 40 and even 50 in the "young" one.

so what is it that makes some people seam "young" and some people seam "old"? i think its a lot of things, the most important of which is how uptight you are and how to you treat other people.

for instance, most "old" people i know aren't really old, they're assholes. they treat people like shit because they think they have a right to, because they are "better" than them, "better" being defined, by them, in their own heads, as being more "grown up" or "responsible": shorter hair. suit/tie. home ownership. stock portfolio. married. kids. SUV.

hold on a second. these people really think that driving around a gas-guzzling SUV, popping out kids in an era where the world's population is about to explode, and dressing like an enron exec makes them "better"? add to that the fact that those portfolios probably contain investments in the arms industry, and obsolete energy sources, and you have the makings of genuine, bonifide peice of shit.

seriously, i'm not trying to judge. i'm trying to project myself into their life.

me, i wouldn't be able to live with myself. i'm more responsible than that.